As I was walking laps around the playground today, I had some time to do some thinking.
Warning- long, wordy post because I’m old and don’t have pictures that weren’t digital from high school or before.
I used to be a dancer, I would dance from 4-9pm, 5 days a week. Once I stopped dancing, I went to competitive cheer. Practicing hours a day, plus competitions, plus games.
For some reason – I think it was once I became a parent. I have had it ingrained somehow (and I really don’t know where this thinking came from) that doing more than 30 minutes of a workout, was too much. Was “obsessive.” That I didn’t need it. That doing one workout a day was a big CHECK and I didn’t need to do anything else that day.
This has led me to YEARS and YEARS of sitting my butt on the couch. Doing anything even remotely active would be “enough” for the day and “earned” me the right to sit and watch TV. I hate this. And that leads me to the epiphany I had today.
I want a healthy LIFE. I want an active life. I don’t want to use exercise as a punishment for my body. I want to get back to exercise as something I love, crave and enjoy doing! I love a long, sweaty, omg I’m gonna die workout. I used to love going for long walks, hikes, kayaking, bowling, dance parties…all of it just because. Because I hated just sitting. I want that back!!!
As a Type 2 Diabetic, it’s super important that in order to change and hopefully not need all of these medications, I have to completely overhaul the way I was living. Staying active all day long is imperative. Not just doing 1 thing and thinking “phew. done for the day.” I look at friends who will take a group class in the morning, go for a walk or run and then do yoga or another class later on that day. That’s the life I want to be living. That’s the lifestyle I crave.
I feel like this huge AHA moment happened for me today. After all these years I finally know what I want and what I want to work towards.
I have realized it’s not a number on the scale, it’s not a clothing size, it’s not about punishing my body.
And with that- happy Friday!!!! Have a great weekend- any fun plans?!