A Picture is Worth A Thousand Words

*sigh* I seriously feel like I’m at a loss right now. I hated the person who was SO obsessed with the scale and my days revolved around what that stupid machine said, BUT, I still have work to do and some changes to make. This is a picture from January 1st and today. Not much has changed – on the outside. On the inside I’m a totally different person. My confidence is returning, I am looking forward to working out every day and love that release of endorphins after an exhausting workout.

JanMay2

Getting real now: I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to go back to weighing myself daily. It was exhausting and I valued that number way too much. I don’t want to obsess about every single thing I put in my mouth either, weighing, measuring, I don’t have time for it and I don’t want to do it. Typing all of this out sounds like I’m making a ton of excuses, maybe I am. That’s why I have this blog- to figure things out.  What it comes down to- I don’t have a “goal weight.” But, let’s be honest, I want my clothes to fit better and don’t want to be a size XL anymore which is where I’m at now.  I am a Diabetic. Will I have to be on insulin the rest of my life? Quite possibly. There is a small chance that if I get the weight off I can wean off the insulin and not need as much, so don’t’ I owe it to myself to give that a fair shot? Absolutely.

JanMay

This post is really all over the place- sorry about that and welcome to my brain.  So where do I go from here? I wish I knew. I think I’m going to start slow- track foods that I’m eating and see if I can tweak what I’m doing. I know there are some days I barely get a vegetable in my mouth. I am almost 1 week free of fast food and I can tell it’s making a big difference. As for weighing in, I just don’t want to go down that road again. I think tracking my measurements is going to be my answer for now.

If you made it through to the end of this post- congratulations – I don’t even know how to wrap this up at this point. Ha.

6 comments

  1. Sandy says:

    Your brain works just like mine! I have a few posts on my page that are so similar. I will say that a friend of mine asked me more than once to join Weight Watchers with her and I said no at first and one day I was just ready and said yes. Best decision I have ever made. I don’t feel like I am on a diet because I do get to eat whatever I want. Yes, the first few weeks, it takes some time to calculate points, but it is amazing how fast you memorize points values and add in your head and you hardly have to spend any time at all on it. I get on the scale once a week at home just to see how things are going and once a week at the meeting. I don’t obsess about the scale, I take the gains in stride, because they do happen and will continue to happen. I think the key though was being ready. I wasn’t ready the first few times she asked, but then one day within 5 minutes of her asking I was starting that Saturday. I was ready. You have to do what works for you, right now. But when you are ready, I would recommend Weight Watchers, it is easy, I can still even go through a drive through with the kids and get something small, not that it is healthy, but in a pinch sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do! Sorry for the book…I just totally relate to everything you wrote and I wanted to let you know what is working for me!! You got this!

  2. Stacie @ SimplySouthernStacie says:

    I think the scale can be such a discouragement for so many people. I personally avoid the thing like the plague because my weight always tends to fluctuate. Instead, I just go by how my clothes fit me. Sometimes, I’ll buy something kind of special just so I know I have to work a bit harder to wear it or pull it off. You are doing great and as long as you are feeling good on the inside, that will always radiate to the outside : )

  3. Melanie @ Happy Being Healthy says:

    I love how you said you’ve changed a lot on the inside! That’s exactly how my healthy journey has gone too.. When I first got serious about losing weight, the weight came off SO SLOWLY and I started my blog as motivation and accountability for myself. I feel like I’m learning new things all the time and trying different things. It probably took me two years to get to the healthy body I wanted. Now (post-baby), I’m back at it again and it’s taking forever!!! The biggest things that help me is staying away from sugar, fast food and major processed things. I still have them from time to time, but when I cut them out, I see huge changes! I also notice big changes when I stop eating by 7:00-8:00 at night. Hang it there…you’ll get there!!!

  4. Annmarie says:

    Getting away from the scale is the best thing that you can do- I threw mine away a long time ago and literally have no idea what I weigh unless I go to the doctors. Taking measurements and tracking your intake is a great idea, it will give you some control and direction without having to obsess over a silly number that doesn’t mean anything <3

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